All I want to do is cuddle with my girlfriend over text and have feels with her is that too much to ask
This past week+ has been emotionally draining
The morning texts from Light always manage to put a smile on my face as I’m waking up though.
I don’t get it. When I do things to warrant hate from other people, I’m never hated. Yesterday, I thought it would be better if everyone hated me, wouldn’t it? I asked Bartzgi if she was mad at me, because I wanted to know since I didn’t want things to end up the way they did with Molii, Locke, and Abbie.
It turns out she didn’t get it;
Part of me wanted her to hate me, for everyone to hate me, but part of me knew I would just fall into despair once more if they did.
I’m such a selfish thing.
I can’t go into in depth descriptions/analyzations like Julz can
I can’t make anyone laugh like Seifu can
I can’t draw as well as Kuja
I can’t express myself properly without confusing anyone because I try to fix it once I do
I can’t go without craving attention from certain people
I can’t help anyone
What do people see in me that’s so good?
It’s strange how it can go from a sullen morning to a laughing night
